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[Apr. 17th, 2009|10:20 pm] |
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so i decided to "undelete" my lifejournal account, even though i already made a new one. there are some pretty important entries on this one, and i just couldnt quite say goodbye to some of them. especially the things that had to do with cameron.:/ so clearly, i'm weak. i won't be updating this livejournal anymore, i'm using the new one now. but this is just an update saying that i undeleted it. |
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| FOUR HUNDRED THIRTY FIVE. friday. |
[Mar. 27th, 2009|06:33 pm] |
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| |  angry | ] |
wowww, unfortunately, i have to make a new one of these.
megan ratfield just called me, but i dont even know how she got my number?, & i called her a bitch in one of these entry things, and she was google-ing her name, and my livejournal came upppp.
so i lied and said that it wasnt mineee.
and now shes probably gonna stalk it and find out everything ive said and all my secrets and crap.
soooo im making a new one. a private one.
shiiiiit, im kinda screwed. if she reads all these entries, i dunno what im gonna do.
i guess ill just go make everything private in this one,
AND make a new one.
farewell, livejournal. |
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| FOUR HUNDRED THIRTY FOUR. friday. |
[Mar. 27th, 2009|04:49 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | complacent | ] |
tgif, no kidding.
i HATE how the highlight of my day is always when a boy says hi to me, because then i start to like them. no guys ever really talk to me or hang out with me. ive never really hung out with a guy outside of school, and it sucks. a boy just making casual conversation with me makes me start to like him, because no boys ever do that.
today was eh. |
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| FOUR HUNDRED THIRTY THREE. thursday. |
[Mar. 26th, 2009|08:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  stressed | ] |
yesterday was okay.
today was boring.
tomorrow wont be any better.
right now, i want summer more than ive ever wanted anything in my life.
iiiiiiii, hateeeeeee, schoollllllllllll. |
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| FOUR HUNDRED THIRTY TWO. tuesday. |
[Mar. 24th, 2009|08:36 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | okay | ] |
before school- i dont remember.
homerooooom- nothing.
first period- notes and stuff.
second period- i didnt really have anything to do.
third period- math, ickkkkk.
fourth period- band band band. ew.
lunch- nothing reallllly.
fifth period- my essay is really good :D i'm proud of myself.
sixth period- religions. i was almost crying because i was thinking too much about my religion & how i havent been dedicated enough.
after school- went shopping with sienna & her cousin mariah. she's suuuper nice, and really pretty! she's honestly amazing.
honors society trip to seattle tomorrow. yay. |
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| FOUR HUNDRED THIRTY ONE. monday. |
[Mar. 23rd, 2009|06:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | okay | ] |
i slept in today so i could buy jonas brothers tickets at 10am.
then we picked up marissa & went to school at about 11.
so.
fourth period- marching outsidee.
lunch- nothing reallllly. meagan kinda ignored me.
fifth period- i love mrs ratcliffe(:
sixth period- mr sutherland doesnt make sense. at all.
after school- play practice, then like 15 minutes of the basketballll game.
stupid washington.
i hate the rain. |
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| FOUR HUNDRED THIRTY. saturday. |
[Mar. 21st, 2009|06:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hopeful | ] |
i had a bad day.
i didnt get the shorts that i need
my dad yelled at me for everything, IN PUBLIC. aka at the mall.
(but then he said i might get a cell phone this summer? yeah whatever.)
grandma couldnt fix my white shorts like i wanted, so now ill never wear them, so she and dad both yelled at me for that.
then we collected our neighbors chicken eggs, and the chickens scared the living shit out of me. no joke. but its cool, because they have a rooster, two turkeys, and at least 12 chickens. & we got to keep the eggs(:
oh haha did i ever tell you that his last name is jonas? yeah, rob jonas. thats funny, because its like big rob, hahaha. and when we first moved in here, i thought it was the stupidest last name ever. and now its the coolest.(;
anyways, on on the bright side,
my dad is actually MAKING EFFORT to talk to grandma.
and now billie is coming over.
i havent hung out with her in a long time.
gonna have fun tonight, <3 bye. |
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| FOUR HUNDRED TWENTY NINE. thursday. |
[Mar. 19th, 2009|04:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | okay | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "unlove you" -ashley tisdale. | ] |
before school- announcements with meagan.
homeroom- tyler & i organized the name tags.
first period- mr dahl gets annoyed of me really easily, hahahhaha. "DOLLLLY LLAMA!" lol.
second period- i walked around all period.
third period- ryan isnt my best friend anymore i guess? aha we never were. but i wish we were :/ whatever, theres more boys in high schoooool.
fourth period- band is band is band.
lunch- i'm so lonely when sienna isnt there :/ cody was dipping his funions in ranch and marinara sauce. ew.
fifth period- we just went to the library to research our topic. i got henrich himmler. he was in charge of killing all the jews in world war two, not hitler. himmler came up with the idea, not hitler.
sixth period- we went to digitools, and cody & i fought a lot :/ i hate when we fight, even though i start most of it.
after school- kelsey was throwing water at cody, so he used me as a shield and came up behind me and grabbed me, & i was like "this is awkward, get offff of me." and some kid from math class came up, i think his name is robert, and stared at us while cody was still grabbing me from the back, and he was like "hey! she doesnt like when you touch her!" and kept staring until cody let go. then robert walked away. i think he likes me because he does things like this, plus he stares at me all the time in math class. even ryan noticed. then when robert walked away, cody touched my arm, and then he touched my hair, then he put his hand on my head, & then i just walked away and got on the bus, with robert staring at me as i walked away. its a little creepy, since hes fat & ugly. no offense.
gonna watch americas next top model.
then eat dinner.
then homeworkkk.
and then watch survivor!
byee :) |
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| FOUR HUNDRED TWENTY EIGHT. thursday. |
[Mar. 19th, 2009|05:46 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | hopeful | ] |
goodmorning livejournal.
-school yesterday wasn't even worth updating about, that's how lame it was.
-my dad told me yesterday that i'm monotone & i can't carry a tune, then he said "just face it, you can't sing." i thought parents are supposed to be supportive and helpful, not crushing and rude. yeah thank dad, i love you too.
-i have to dance with joe for the play. joe, an 8th grader, not the joey who i think is cute.
-me and sam are fighting over the piccolo part for a song we're doing for contest and our last concert. she's already had two solos this year, and i haven't had any. and i'm first chair right now, so i should get it. she says she should get it because it's her last year of band- but that's not my fault. she can do band next year if she wanted to, but she wants to be a doctor instead, but that's not my fault. mr burch said he might split the parts up so we both get half, but she's already had to solos this year, and i'm first chair! hopefull for the next chair test, i'll maintain that position, but i want the part- sam and i have been talking about it all year, and she wanted the solo at the beginning of the year, and i could have the piccolo part on this song. and now she wants it too because shes not doing band. ugh just give me the solo, i deserve it. but i guess whatever's meant to be will work itself outtttt, yeeh.
-by a miracle of god, my grandma wants to stay here for another year. thank you jesus.
maybe basketball game tonight?
yeah, its the night game, but i dunno who else is going.
gonna go get ready for school, bye. |
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| FOUR HUNDRED TWENTY SEVEN. tuesday. |
[Mar. 17th, 2009|03:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | angry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "beautiful" -akon. | ] |
in case you were wondering, don't trust me.
i'm not worthy of anybody's trust.
and i'll probably just tell someone anyway.
i had a bad day. it started out good, then my mood just turned horrible.
i've had bad mood swings lately, and i don have any idea why.
before school- announcements was fun :D apparently the camera was on, but we didnt know it, so everyone could see us talking and stuff on the tv, even though the audio wasnt on. and they saw us throwing stuff and going behind the curtain. then bryce came in and told us that the camera was on, hahaha. so everyone saw us being stupid :D then everyone talked about it all day long(:
first period- we literally watched ice melt. ha.
second period- i didnt really have anything to do, so i just sat there. i didnt even feel like reading.
third period- caley is really distracting. and i wish ryan saw me as more than just another girl. like, i wish we were better friends, if he even considers us friends.
fourth period- sam & i are fighting over who gets the piccolo part for the next song, even though shes already had two solos this year, one being a piccolo part. and im first chair, so i should get it. but shes not doing band next year, so she wants it. then do band! ugh. she'll probably get it in the end anyways. then i pushed sams flute off her lap onto the ground. oops.
lunch- sienna didnt talk to me all day. she smiled at me two or three times, but thats it. this started my bad day.
fifth period- i don't get it.
sixth period- cody is rude, to say the least.
after school- i dont know. i just left school. i cant deal with it anymore.
okay, whenever im with sienna, just me and her, its fun.
but whenever its her and me and other people, it sucks.
last year, on may 23rd, we had an honors society trip to seattle.
sienna wasnt on honors society, so i hung out with adria the whole time.
and cameron wasnt there either, so i had nothing to worry about all day.
it was one of the best days of my life.
but this year, sienna is going. and she wont leave me alone.
and it will suck. so i dont even know why im going.
i want to GET AWAY from school and drama.
but by trying to get away, im bringing it with me.
ill just talk to adria about it. she'll probably know what to do.
addicted to this song<3 |
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| FOUR HUNDRED TWENTY SIX. monday. |
[Mar. 16th, 2009|07:14 pm] |
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before school- annnnouncements!
homeroom- flight picturee.
first period- mr dahl blew a balloon up! :) literally, it exploded. like, a chemical explosion, ahhaha. then when it blew up, meagan leaped off of my shoulder, then i screamed because it was so loud. lol.
second period- i walked around alllll period.
third period- ryan makes me all happy inside :)
fourth period- band is band, nothing intresting.
lunch- sienna was sick :/ i had nobody to talk to at lunch. i feel mandys pain.
fifth period- "STOP DRAGGING YOUR SHOES!" "what are you talking about?" "sex." hahahah :D
sixth period- digitooooooools.
after school- i totally forgot about play practice, hahahah.
dad said he would get me & sienna floor seats for the jonas brothers concert if she paid for most of her ticket :D but she wont answer her phone, sooo. ill figure it out tomorrow, haha.
mm bye! |
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| FOUR HUNDRED TWENTY FIVE. saturday. |
[Mar. 14th, 2009|07:50 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sad | ] |
i was watching a season of survivor, and i almost cried.
this counts as abuse in my book.
he starts DRAGGING him along! its not that the old guy gave up, its that hes not physically capable of keeping up with him!
then, its not in the video, but at the end, the old guy, chet, was like "i hit my head back there" & joel, the buff guy, was like "i dont care" and chet just said "i know."
i almost cried, you dont do that! that makes me really upset, and i dont even know the old guy.
he could have killed him! if joel is THAT obsessed with winnning, he has a PROBLEM. wow.
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| FOUR HUNDRED TWENTY THREE. friday. |
[Mar. 13th, 2009|08:31 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  moody | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "need" -hana pestle. | ] |
before school- billie asked if i wanted to go dress shopping this weekend with her. of course i said yes(:
homeroom- nothing, nothing ever happens.
first period- the room smelled like smoke when we were done with the lab.
second period- it was peaceful. i got a day off from delivering newspapers. and i successfully transfered a call to the nurse! yay! then hope gave me a hug & held on for a long time, as usual, then ehe said said "i love you" as she let go(: shes a cute girl, she deserves a good life.
third period- ryan and caley and i couldnt stop laughing, i dont even know why.
fourth period- i suck at memorizing pep tunes. "golly gee audrey, your swell! would you like to go study with me?!" hahha, oregon was fun. audrey makes me smile(:
lunch- i totally ate way too much.
fifth period- i asked cody if he was going to phs next year, he said maybe, i said im committing suicide if he does.
sixth period- foster said hes tired of me and kelsey and meagan. so i said "gee, thanks foster!"
after school- i dont remember.
its codys and meagans one month tomorrow.
im sooo happy for them.
yeah, did you catch the sarcasm?
i had a boring day.
then i dont know what happened.
i got all upset and stuff.
my heart needs a break from life. |
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| FOUR HUNDRED TWENTY TWO. wednesday. |
[Mar. 11th, 2009|06:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | touched | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "hold on" -3D jonas brothers. | ] |
i don't know why, but i had an urge to post something.
i guess i've finally decided that i need to change.
the whole world seems to be against me.
then the next day, the whole world is my best friend.
so i've decided that it's every person for themselves.
and i need to have confidence in everything that i do.
and i need to make my own decisions.
and i need to do things because i want to, not because others want me to.
"when you love someone & they break your heart, don't give up on love, have faith, restart, just hold on, hold on..." |
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| FOUR HUNDRED TWENTY ONE. wednesday. |
[Mar. 11th, 2009|02:20 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | hopeful | ] |
before school- i woke up at 5:30 to check the tour dates, then called sienna and woke her up with my screaming :D then i went to sectionals. "ITS THE CURSE OF THE PENCIL!" ha, this morning marked the beginning of my fasting.
first period- i was suuuper hyper, you have no idea. HA.
second period- mrs murakami said that her goal for me this semester is to think. HA.
third period- i hate when mrs erickson doesnt call on me in class, because she knows that i know the answer.
fifth period- cody sat by me during the video. i dont know what happened in the video because i was too hungry and tired. and cody was there, so i was distracted thinking about why hes being nice to me lately.
fourth period- band is band.
lunch- we play mancala in mr sutherlands classroom to make sure we dont eat in the cafeteria.
sixth period- we just played mancala moree.
after school- im getting jb presale tickets next week :D welllll at least i hope so! my dad said he would buy sienna & i tickets to any concert we wanted to go to if we blow off taylor swift, and we did, ha.
im hungryy! ah! i dont get to eat until tomorrow afternoon.
whatever, its 30 hours 4 africa! :D
i feeeel good! i knew that i would noww!
HA, im going insane! im going to be hyper tomorrrow morning!
i get really weird when i dont eat.
:D |
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| FOUR HUNDRED TWENTY. wednesday. |
[Mar. 11th, 2009|06:03 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | thankful | ] |
ahhhh so i woke up at 5:53 am to check the jonas brothers concert datse.
and...
THEY ARE COMING TO TACOMA!
since my dad didnt let me or sienna go to the taylor swift concert,
he said he would pay for any concert we wanted to go to.
and the jonas brothers are coming here on JUNE 28th, 2009!
so unless the tickets sell out, we have a 100% chance of going to their concert.
<3 |
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| FOUR HUNDRED NINETEEN. tuesday. |
[Mar. 10th, 2009|03:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | okay | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "lips of an angel" -hinder. | ] |
i had another really weird day. i want to cry, im just so, ugh, i dont even know. ive been really moody lately. & no, its not that time of the month, ha.
before school- i went in the elevator with tiffany and freaked out when it dropped.
homeroom- i almost finished my math homework.
first period- im kinda behind on this dumb project.
second period- i love hope! shes my favorite seventh grader ever!
third period- ryan accused me of holding his hand, but i wasnt, ha. then meagan went home after this class.
fourth period- i want to play music, not twinkle twinkle little star and james bond.
lunch- audrey thinks i wont cry on the last day of school, HA. thaaaats funny.
fifth period- i love my book, its really good(: & cody and i were getting along for some reason. he kept looking at me and smiling and stuff. maybe because meagan wasnt there?
sixth period- cody and i were still getting along, and being nice to each other. i have no idea why, unless its because meagan wasnt there.
after school- hope came up to me & gave me a hug, and when i tried to let go, she wouldnt(: shes a little cutieee.
i dont know whats up with me lately... honestly. |
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| FOUR HUNDRED EIGHTEEN. monday. |
[Mar. 9th, 2009|06:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
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"i hate this waiting game, i dont want to live my one and only life wanting something i cant have. i dont know why guys care more about their reputation than there heart. if you really want someone.. get it. in other words, i wont be waiting forever."
this is on a girl's, salina's, myspace (she goes to my school, and her name is pronounced like selena gomez). she wrote it. and i agree. |
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| FOUR HUNDRED SEVENTEEN. monday. |
[Mar. 9th, 2009|04:59 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | hopeful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "unlove you" -ashley tisdale. | ] |
just a few thoughts, then ill update.
-it snowed alllll dayyyyy longgggg, off & on. its march, and im sick of the snow!
-30 hours fast starts tomorrow night! wooo! im pumped!
-im not doing swimming class next year, but i want to do swim TEAM in the fall. theres a "no cut" policy, which means ill make it. im sure ill convince a friend to do it with me. sienna already said no, so ill find someone else(:
okay...
before school- nothing really. collin makes me smile :)
homeroom- megan is a bitch(: just thought id throw that out there.
first period- i love science, its fun sometimes!
second period- mrs murakami had me running around all period, then she forgets to do attendance, so im walking around collecting attendance sheets while kids are walking to 3rd period. cooool.
third period- mrs erickson, gosh. i really dont understand what we're doing right now, but she wont explain it to me, and she wont let meagan or amanda explain it to me. ha, cool.
fourth period- i dont know whats up with mr burch lately... man.
lunch- i ate my daddys amazing sandwich(: then cody and i got in a fight. he was like "i want a fruit snack" & i was like "i dont care" & he said "i know you dont" & we just started arguing. hes a jerk. whatever, he knows i dont like him. if i have any classes with him next year, im gonna shoot myself.
fifth period- meagan and i laugh a lot in this class :)
sixth period- i love debates(:
after school- play practice was lame. and boring. and stupid. i want to quit. but i guess ill just stick with it. i hate letting people down.
this song is sad.
ahh i hope the jonas brothers come to seattle! if they dont, i'm gonna cry.
ps- i love my best friends. |
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